Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Nothing to Hide my Blue Eyes Under

AT THE BOTTOM OF MY PAGE I NOW HAVE A PLAYSLIST OF SONGS--> the soundtrack to my life. for your enjoyment<3
2 AM and I collapsed on top of my purple covers last night. Oh it tastes so sweet to be home but my hair is gone and I keep reaching for those long blond waves. Now they are lying idly on some salon floor and I have nothing to hide my blue eyes under. Maybe I never should have hid them in the first place but I can hardly recognize myself in this short bob with the bangs that fall in my face like a pretty accident. One day I'll blow kisses to that mirror again but right now my confidence is teetering and I can't stop looking at pictures of girls in prom dresses that make me feel hideous. I guess all girls have these days. Wasn't I the one who said we were beautiful on our own? We are, but I'm only human.
Dancing in the rain with two of the most beautiful girls in the world. Splashing on slick black streets and soggy white petals from the flowering trees fall down onto our shoulders and stay there the whole car ride home. A million digital pictures because if I could have an eternity oh those moments would have been it. Twirling under charcoal skies and sprinting barefoot to my best friends car. Singing with the thunder and laughing until my sides were throbbing with joy.
I have new songs swimming in my head these days. New melodies to ride bikes past preteen skaters and dust mahogany blinds to. New tunes to sway my hips to and fall in love to and shove my face to and dance and dance and dance to. These songs have won me over and I have surrendered to their every acoustic guitar because i am so easily seduced by one brilliant song. I can't wait to sing in the front seat of your car again.